Somedays, I miss University.
I miss having female roommates whose room I could run into to talk about the latest news from facebook. I miss four day weekends and sleeping in. I miss late night Big Stop runs. I miss being able to make plans on the fly. I miss going out with friends. I miss having the freedom to do as I please. I miss writing papers and tests. I miss being able to judge how well I am doing by the grade that graced those papers and tests. I miss eating my meals with friends. I miss talking to Dave about things other than how many poopy diapers were changed that day, or which baby was the crankiest. I miss seeing Dave more than at breakfast and as I fall asleep at night.
And today, when I miss University life, I recognize that one day I'll miss today. I need to work on my patience and relishing the good moments - the times when I find Ella sitting in the corner singing quietly, or when Ella brings James his 'munny' when he is crying, or when she pushes him in the swing and he laughs, or when he tells me stories while sucking his thumb. I'll miss Ella giving me kisses through the rungs of her crib, and I'll miss the way James smiles at me when I look at him. I'll miss James' chubby legs in his Jolly Jumper, and how Ella always wants to help me cook. I'll miss the way Ella says 'munny' (bunny), and 'box' (blocks), and 'Jay' (James), and 'duckie', and 'doggie', and 'birdie', and nana, and papa, and mama, and dada, and the way she woofs like a dog, and how she makes the best elephant noises.
I don't get to go out anymore. I can't make plans on the fly. I don't have great girlfriends who I can call up in a pinch, or whose bed I can go jump on when I am down. My conversations with my husband revolve mostly around our children. I change more poopy diapers in a day than most people wish to in their whole lives. I spend most days at home or at work, and spend almost every night at home. If I want to do anything, I have to schedule it far in advance.
But I am blessed. I am blessed to have a little curly-haired blonde girl who loves life, and a little chubby boy who is incredibly happy. Sometimes during the day, I need to remind myself of this, but if I'm being honest - at night, when they are sleeping - I miss them like crazy.